Dear Self

Dear Self,
I have let you down this past weekend. You and I thought that by smoking all weekend we would be in a better place than when we started. Well, you quit trying. You were able to talk yourself into the bad habits of your past. It's Tuesday morning now. Your spirits are crushed, your goals seeming unimportant. Sad country songs you make up plague your thoughts because you knew how special this person was. The whole time you wanted her to see that things are better when thinking positively. Now, she is and you are proud. It was you that thought she would never change. She has changed and you are not sure about your love for her. Now after all that has been done she tells you that you were perfect for her.
You listened to a song of hers this morning that for some reason you feel a stronger connection to her feelings. Why haven't you been able to make a connection with her feelings when not in song?

It's time to look to god, the guru, the higher power, the universe.

You said you were going to try. You stopped trying. It's getting harder and harder to recover each step I take in the wrong direction. Truth and happiness must prevail. Who are you? What do you want? When will you get it? How much of you can you give when it's all gone?
Karl is not wanting to quit smoking. Matt doesn't understand how we feel about abuse. These people are endangering your progress.

Shari doesn't want to give you a hug. Hug yourself, you will always be there for us! Please stop asking her for things.

You just called Dr. Adams, that is the right choice to make. 562.799.1226

Finding a way to be happy with yourself again is what you will do. It will be hard, but it's so simple. We all want to be strong to be able to fix things on our own.

What are you going to do to keep a lasting change?

Think about you.